The last 3 weeks have been so very stressful, running into proverbial brick walls, and proverbial trains hitting us....BUT it seems we may be able to see a light at the end of the tunnel....of course, I always know things will work out, but when the world is coming down on your shoulders, it sure doesn't look that way, and it is not easy to see things in that light....so I am able to write my thoughts, feelings, and emotions out....and this helps me tremendously.
As I said we may be seeing some great white lights at the end of this tunnel of turmoil.
Our omnipresent guardian "angels" have come forward, and we are getting things accomplished....one step at a time....as we always do...
Someone has stepped up and offered to supply groceries every 2 weeks.......
Someone gave us some funds to help pay for the CoPay on these expensive meds, that we have been trying to get for THREE weeks now....that is my biggest point of frustration...knowing these lesions are growing all the while, while we wait on the beaureaucratic red tape...its just BS in my opinion.....the folks who make the decisions and create the wait aren't suffering the consequences, its not their bodies with the cancer...so cancer is not considered an "emergent treatment" illness...BUT suppose the person waiting for you all to filter thru the income sources, talk with the doctors, etc and have the TEAM meeting to say yea or nay, was your mother, sister, wife, or friend.....just think how YOU would feel....so time is of the essence, and when you see someone who is waiting for the meds to be deemed appropriate, funding to be approved, and time just clicks right on by.....THINK how YOU would feel....I bet things would move faster....it is just totally ridiculous for a person to have to wait 3 weeks....that's my 2 cents...and all of you not directly involved will not totally understand my frustration, but that is okay.....just know I am not a "nervous nellie"...I want her on these meds NOW!!!!!!
Someone is thinking of maybe helping pay the van off so we don't lose the 4 years equity we have in it now....
Someone is thinking of helping with the payment for the meds Cat needs....the CoPays alone are around $2000 a month...that is more than we get combined total a month disability.
We are desperately searching for another safe, affordable, spacious place to live....this current landlord is so shady...things are certainly worrisome to us, and we want to be rid of this albatross we pay dearly for each month, to have so many things wrong and never get fixed, only "patched" up...
So, to this end, yes God does take care of us....and I know we are truly blessed....as always...we sing his praises daily!!!!
Thanks everyone who reads my journal, and know I appreciate the silent support as much as the written support. I am a positive person, I believe Cat can beat this dreadful diagnosis of Cancer, and we always put our faith in God's hands....
To my wonderful cousins in Texas, and the one in Tennessee....know we love you and anxiously await a visit from you both.....come on down!!!!
To Cat's sister and mom, who are our angels truly....we love you so much!!! Thanks for always being with us....
So thanks people for not being patronizing, or condescending, or any thing else....just read my words, weep silently with me, share in our journey, our progresses, and the regresses, however small,and offer me your kind words....that is all I need....Chatter