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Location: Still home.
Current Activity: Paying bills over the phone.
Listening: "What You Said" ~The Moon Seven Times.

Eventually went out to my car to grab the bills and rambled over to the neighborhood doughnut shoppe for a fritter. Brought back doughnuts and have started a pot of coffee. I should wake Peter, but every time I try, he trills and rolls over and I resolve to let him sleep a little longer.

Thinking about possible projects to embark on--all of the writing I've left behind, specifically. I have about ten or twelve poems that I like well enough to post on my site (the URL to which I'll post here when it's done to my satisfaction) and some prose pieces as well. Stars still hangs over me, but I vacillate day to day on whether or not returning to it is healthy. In order to finish the book, I would need to try to put myself back into one of the darkest times in my life and write from that perspective again--and that could be very unwise. So, for now, I listen to music and watch films and play with little ideas that come to mind time and again. My dreams have become very surreal and those visuals occasionally make me wonder at the prospect of starting a screenplay for a short film. I've never been able to write very competently from the predominantly visual standpoint; a large part of my prose involves scent, touch, and sound in lieu of sight. I've often thought that this was because my own eyesight is so poor and, in some ways, this has forced me to rely more heavily on my other senses, even with my contacts in. Not sure. The story itself would be compact and strange and highly conceptual and would likely end up disturbing someone fundamentally (as much of my prose did in college workshops). From what I've seen so far, Peter Greenaway (The Cook, The Thief, His Wife & Her Lover,The Pillow Book, etc.) and I have a lot in common.

Which reminds me: I've been making lists lately for my site of various favorite things. I finally managed to compile my top ten favorite films, so here you are (note that these are in no particular order):

1. Fight Club
2. The Cook, The Thief, His Wife & Her Lover
3. The Pillow Book
4. Mrs. Parker And The Vicious Circle
5. The English Patient
6. Henry & June
7. The Year Of Living Dangerously
8. Grosse Pointe Blank
9. The Usual Suspects
10. Chasing Amy

I actually have two other short lists. First of all, films that I loved but will never see again for varying reasons:

1. Se7en
2. Legends Of The Fall
3. The Accused
4. Leaving Las Vegas
5. Brazil

Finally, films that I love but am unwilling to admit that I love when not being tortured:

1. Bull Durham
2. Showgirls
3. Bound
4. Top Gun
5. Basic Instinct

Books are proving a little more difficult.