Faith, Or The Opposite Of Pride + the mizu chronicles + 15528 Curiosities served |
2001-09-07 10:31 PM Catherine, You Have Murdered My Thinking Previous Entry :: Next Entry Mood: Concise ==================================================
Location: Home. Up and down today--began down, ended up. My job is fraying my edges and leading me into microcosmic focus, disturbing my contentment. Small things I would not notice or think anything of become fraught with meaning because I try to control my internal environment when I cannot control my external. I fear what I love because, if I truly love it, I am defenseless in the face of it. I despise fear, as it's a burden on my will. However, if I don't face it down, I lose the things most important to me. Peter periodically confounds me. Then we speak bluntly about otherwise difficult subjects and I realize that it's when I think we are the least alike that we have somehow managed to re-converge. I am, by turns, shaky and perfectly secure. Loving him occasionally plays hell with me--but it's never not been worth it. I learn from him and from myself when I react to him. I never thought there was so much I didn't know. I try to do as much for him as he does for me. I hope I succeed. Previous Entry :: Next Entry Back to Top |
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